To God and Jesus, to Nathan, Melinda, April. And everyone else who knows where and how I have been. There are others as well, and you will certainly know who you are.
I’m one of those guys who likes to bottle things up inside, I’m not one who likes to share my problems. Many people really think that I should do that, even though I will certainly disagree with them.
Nathan said exactly what I think I needed to hear, and certainly at the right time too. There is something about hearing what you need at the right time, and definitely not too early. I think that may have been one of the problems earlier. I wasn’t ready to hear the outside world, and what it was saying until I had some honest thinking time to myself.
Maybe that is just the physiological me, a guy who lets things build up, will snap with the right trigger, and want to sit on it for days, and maybe even weeks, and then needs just the right words at the right time like a pep-talk as a pick me up. Hopefully it sticks around for quite some time.
Some people will tell me that I’m not supposed to let things bother me, I’m supposed to either deal with them there and then, or just move on from them without letting them bother me. I often feel as though I have moved on, but I just wonder whether I really have.
Some people might say that I need to cry more, sorry, but that is definitely not happening, I’m a man. That is just me, I would rather not cry then let it all out. I don’t understand men that cry, sorry.
I’m going to think that I’m back to my normal self, but time will tell. Give me a few days to sit on it, and I’ll report back.
