Being Wrong
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Am I wrong with what I am honestly thinking?
The more I think about giving up on Christianity, the more that I feel as though I really belong to Christianity. Is that normal for a person questioning themselves, their faith, and what they believe in? I’ve never really been in this situation before, and it is quite different to anything else.
I have been in positions similar, where I have questioned a call I made in the past, but I usually never get dragged back to where I previously stood. There has always been evidence pointing me towards the newer, better solution, but this time with Christianity, there is nothing to pull me away from it, except myself.
Maybe I’m not really questioning Christianity itself, maybe I just been questioning myself?
Does being a Christian mean you are supposed to be happy? I don’t know many Christians who are sad at all, other than maybe myself, and even then, that is the understatement of the year.
I dont think it is wrong questioning your faith. I actually think it is a healthy thing to do as then you know why u believe. Trust me Andrew I am not happy all the time. I find ways to let go of the stress of living with mental disorder people. (mum also suffers from depression but is generally fine on meds) SOmetimes if being immature and acting like a kid again when appropriate helps me get through life then I will do that. If other people see me as being immature so be it as they dont see me all the time and obviously dont really know me. If shutting myself away at times just to give myself time to breath then that is what I will do to deal with the sadness of life and the stresses in life. I am not happy because I am a Christian as trust often the Christian walk is hard and we live in a broken world that sucks. But my happiness comes from giving things over to God and remembering the good things in life that he has given us like good friends, nature etc. ITs fine to be sad but if you are sad all the time I will be wondering why and ways you can improve that as ask Lisa being sad all the time is not much fun!
I know sadness isn't much fun, but I don't seem to have much happiness ever … Every time you see me happy is more likely to be a show rather than the real happiness …
Matthew 5:4