I have Failed
Do you remember the claim I made in my review post for 2009, and how I was wanting to blog weekly, preferably even just one post a week, and it looks at though I have failed already, even before the middle of February when I expected to fail.
I’ve also failed in another way, I’ve questioned my faith based upon the bible talk given by Paul Grimmond at NextGen2010 at Katoomba last week. He outlined that the qualities of a leader in a church, as shown in 1 Timothy 3, and said that really these qualities should be those of a Christian. Having reflected on my life since then, I feel as though I will probably never be able to stack up to those qualities, ever.
I’m trying to work out why someone would want to save me, a guy who can’t live up to the following qualities:
- Being above reproach
- There are many times I have been blamed and as such I can’t be above reproach
- Husband of one wife
- Well I’m not exactly married at the moment, I am engaged, so I suppose I meet this requirement
- Temperate & Self-controlled
- There are times where I can be extreme, and not show self-retraint
- Respectable
- Many people would respect me, even though I don’t think I deserve it
- Hospitable
- When do I enjoy speaking to strangers, hardly ever, unless they are engineers
- Able to Teach
- Well I failed to finish the Strand Group material didn’t I?
- Not be Drunk
- I enjoy a drink, although I have never been drunk, so I guess I pass
- Not Violent
- Does fighting with my brother count as violence? If so then I fail this requirement
- Not Quarrellsome
- I’m always fighting with people like April, about what the bible teaches/says
- Not a lover of money
- Who doesn’t want more money? I know I do
Out of the 11 qualities on that list, I am good enough for just 2 of the requirements, that is a mark of just 18%. If I met at least 6 out of the 11 then I might consider myself good enough, but I failed miserably.
If you think you can prove me wrong that I meet more of these qualities than please let me know, I just don’t feel it.
You and I have great debates not agruements and we can also be just as stubborn and pig headed as each other at times. So we both fail there!!!!!!!
I have failed also; 2 husbands, not at the same time tho
Temperate & Self-controlled, fail.. girls will tell u I have a temper.. I get very grumpy.. no self control with food.
Gees Barney when I look at the list u made above I fail with a capital F.. Thats why I am so glad that my God is a loving forgiving God who loves no matter how much I fail Him at times.
the lover of money…Grimmo said that working for more money is fine, it is being able to be generous is which separates you from being a lover of money or not
I struggle with many things on that list aswell, they all challenge and test me throughout my life. but i KNOW i am not good enough for God, if it wasnt fofr Jesus there would be no way of me even coming close to having a relationship with him. i NEED Jesus and depend on him each and every day to help me get through just the daily life. I think something that makes a person a Christian is how they rely on God and have true faith in him. God will NEVER give up on you i think we all just have to trust that a bit more. If your are struggling with these things then ask God for help and guidance. i hope this helped abit.